THE HUNTRESS PORTAL

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  • The Masterpiece Lives On

    The Masterpiece Lives On

    Monday, April 29th – 

    After I pulled for the week, I’m returning to something I read from the Sacred Earth Oracle. 

    It reminded me of a couple concepts I return to often – of letting go and legacy.

    “Life makes its mark with no obligation, no expectation, and its masterpiece is lost beneath the next snowfall.”
    (p.90 Renewal)

    And it continues,

    “White, where time is frozen, like an expectant hiatus lost to a blank page. Refreshing, perpetual renewal is here, now, always, awaiting you.”

    As I read this and breathed it in, I felt sad, loss.
    What a shame, I thought – gone forever.
    My mind brings up nearby examples –
    A. Family members who pass on without leaving a concrete legacy of their thoughts, memories, and wisdom for their descendants. That’s sad to me, “a missed opportunity,” I often say.

    B. We have artists and masters in their area who die before ever getting credit or acclaim. That’s too bad and so unfair!

    C. Okay the big kahuna – Jesus H. Christ.
    Lately, I’ve been pondering what Jesus may have felt/thought in knowing this life plan of not only sticking out like a sore thumb from day 1 and having to die in a publicly humiliating and painful, drawn out way. It’s also the life where you’re being hugely screwed over by historical memory, being witnessed and remembered in error or in omission of content and/or context. You crushed it (I choose to believe!), but the way it landed for human history was a very mixed bag, more and more so as collective human awareness shifts into a stewardship mindset with itself and the natural world. I am honored to do this little walk through Jesus’s example. He’s refining my perception as we go! Mostly, I can imagine feeling very misunderstood and deeply frustrated with the prospect of this happening to me! I mean, what a miscarriage of justice! I sort of seethe with 2nd hand resentment just considering it. Hmm.

    And then, I heard a warm voice say in my right ear/brain, 

    “There’s no renewal without death. There is no loss in death. Life in all its forms is immaculate.”



    Legacy is completely in the eye of the beholder and the ones ending their human lives have the chance to review every moment and choice after they arrive. They are not responsible for what happens afterward, but I am curious if they follow it, like fan fiction boards. I’m not sure if they care or to what extent they keep up with it…I’ll ask.

    I think the take-home message here is that my brother Jesus doesn’t vibe any lower, regretting how human history screwed up his narrative and used him to oppress each other. Therefore, if Jesus ain’t mad, I ain’t mad. I’ll need to remind myself of this a lot before it’s reprogrammed with this information.

    So, two things here:

    1. Nothing is lost, broken, or “a shame” because it’s ALL for our benefit and our learning.

      It’s a form of praise and worship to feel your emotions, no matter which ones.
      Breathe in and out – the simplest prayer. Amen.
      Change your perception around what’s valuable, now.

      Although it seems to you like everything can be categorized and hierarchies by rating criteria, this is not the way our Higher Selves (or anyone beyond the 3D) understand it. They care only about the beauty, innovation, and creativity in variety and experimentation. They see it all, but it’s like the shadows and outlines in a painting, not binary of good/bad. It complements the whole.
      How we compete is considered very childlike, such that they always extend Grace. Everything adds and contributes and is useful and good.

      Play your hand and give gratitude as often as you can, for the poison is often the medicine.
    1. No such thing as a missed opportunity or a forgotten, jilted legacy.

      Time being non-linear means that we are taking ample attention with every opportunity, and you are here now, exploring yours. You don’t have to worry about not “doing it all,” as you ARE actually doing it all, right now. You really are safe to move about the cabin and just relax…It’s a big shift in your understanding of reality, from a 3D to quantum perspective. As this new theory plays out in our examples of life, refinement is necessary and appropriate. “Maintenance Required,” basically! 😉

    Let’s talk about the renewal piece: No renewal without death.
    Okay, so we’re back in this image of a wintry, icy woods environment.

    “Life makes its mark with no obligation, no expectation, and its masterpiece is lost beneath the next snowfall. White, where time is frozen, like an expectant hiatus lost to a blank page. Refreshing, perpetual renewal is here, now, always, awaiting you.” 

    And the warm words came again behind my right ear:
    “Death is the pause in every note played, to rest, not to stop or fade from record. The song continues and the Soul sings it out as your true essence, into every life – your signature frequency, your bag of tools for the next journey.”

    I then looked up renewal and didn’t find much with the -al, so I looked up renew.

    The definition that resonates for me RN is 1: to make like new: restore to freshness, vigor, or perfection. 

    Death is not to be feared, but revered. Death is actually the perfection/completion of life. It’s not common knowledge here yet.
    It is necessary for the next step in the Soul’s song, the next note resounding bright and strong after resting a beat to renew itself.

    Renewal
    It’s the Soul, your OverSoul or Higher Self or God that calls our human soul shard home to join it, like a mother’s call. And it’s this heart’s cry that beckons us to Sing while we can, our unique note added to the chorus.

    A candle is not upset or bitter at the moment it gets snuffed out – It remains available to bring light anon. That’s what it’s made to do – exist.

    So the snow falls to create another blank canvas. Waves crash upon the shores of castles and holes and sand writing every day and night. Fires burn through forests and renewal can almost instantly be witnessed by life.

    Life is never lost. Art is sometimes a momentary flash, but no less exquisite.
    Something is always gained, learned, and expanded – it’s what life does.
    Replicates, abounds, blooms, carries on.

  • Desperation Prevention

    Desperation Prevention

    That’s my existential work in this world.
    And I’m settling into the idea.

    Desperate people – a type of person
    People in desperate situations – pushed to our limits
    Desperate to [blank] – any desire, a verb
    Extreme lack – empty, needy
    In Need – a state of being
    Expiring – next to gone

    These are my definitions.
    And here’s my phone’s definition:

    What do I need desperately?
    – sustenance [shelter, food/drink, safety, education]
    – connection [belonging, acceptance, shared experience, support]
    – purpose [work, motivation, goals, aspirations]
    – agency [resources where & when needed to make choices]

    Universalish, don’t you think? And generic AF…
    It’s very much a “you decide” kind of thing – lots of options.

    I’ve surmised in my 41 years that the most tragic and embarrassing behaviors often accompany desperation. Whether we meet it as a feeling, a means to an end action, or a profound sense of twisted motivation to meet a need, it is a formidable force.

    Unnecessary, unforeseen, and unseemly things will take place and by your hand. Things that you’d never even imagined before become, at least for a time, a past-time of yours! It’s troubling, yes. You can ignore the unease of it and avoid considering it for a while, but it gets louder or too obvious and you need a better strategy – the time has come to rationalize it (lie to yourself).
    You need some structure for this ultimately destructive and mis-aligned behavior in order to keep doing it (and carrying on). Think up a story that allows you to be a lowly pawn in someone else’s game, a blamey woe is me trope about mainly ceding all your sense of free will authority in order to morally approve your ick behavior choices. “What else am I going to do?!”

    The fear and suffering-soaked actions are out of alignment with that divine spark within us to such a degree that the dissonance ripples out into all sorts of harm – systemic ruptures and splinters to contain damage and restabilize. Explosions, contusions! Picture a lone bubble on the top of the water, calmly bursting. Pop.

    “I can handle it,” says the body. “Move on” says the mind. (I can’t let the fact that this next thing I write reminds me of my PopPop for some reason, so here goes.) The heart holds on and holds out hope. The soul buckles up and endures.

    Maybe you wouldn’t label your life’s distresses in such intense terminology at all, and the word desperate doesn’t track for you. I didn’t relate to it either.
    I wasn’t aware of my own desperation at the time. The words I’d use… prolonged frustration, dissatisfaction, unfulfilled longing is more my verbiage. An ongoing, drolling repetition of, “Something just is NOT adding up.” I definitely was not aware of the condition, of its influence, or the risk its presence presented in my life. I want you to know firsthand.

    That’s my why – desperation prevention.

    We’ve seen it in all the movies and heard it come out of every adult’s mouth – “You made me do this. You drove me to this! This isn’t ME.” We be our own “yass man” for a hot minute and feel sorry for ourself enough to go along with this meh story we’ve spun. And it’s gon’ get worse before it get any better, friend.

    It’s my understanding that God created us as one part of a great big world called Earth, where our kind (hu-mans) are in an ideal situation as far as lifeforms go. Bro! Trees breathe out what we breathe in! We’ve got opposable thumbs, big brains, and we build culture to customize our environments. We create beautifully varied and vibrant ways of life. That pretty much sums it up.

    It sounds like the opposite of desperate.
    Here’s my phone’s quick list of antonyms for desperate:

    If I’m in the desperation prevention business, then I’m looking to somehow increase the experiences that produce the antithesis of despair, so words (above) like unworried, secure, satisfied, satisfactory, hopeful, and content.

    The more of this, the less of the opposite, right? Isn’t that a universal law?
    Did a quick search on the so-called Universal Laws and here’s a good list.
    I have a growing suspicion that humans can convert one into the other, so fully transform the intense pain and violence of desperation into feelings and situations of contentment, ease, and satisfaction. This is an area I’d love to see researched because I can only tell you anecdotally through my own lens of my lived experience. It’s so simple and quick, but it’s a discreet formula and most peoples aren’t really interested.

    In my estimation, this power to transform states of being in life forms from plant, animal, and human is magic! It’s modern evolution, and it’s happening “all the time” as we’re witnessing it and becoming it, really all at once, on so many levels. If our power to manifest our soul’s beautiful expression in the world (rippling out the satisfaction) is directly correlated with the health of our system to process thoughts and emotions into actions chosen in the present moment, then that’s the task at hand. They say the only requirement is choosing to allow for the possibility of change, of other.
    Of new.

    Something I know about “new” is that it’s only ever a viable option for me once I’m out of the woods, so to speak. Or once the smoke has cleared and we’ve gotten our legs back under us. Once my system feels safe enough to relax. Until then, I’m hiding out. New is hope incarnate, and that’s a word on our antonyms of desperation list. Hmm. So my basic requirements have to be getting met, at least to some degree, for my system to allow for “new.”

    An oddly wise thing I heard myself say in convo with my Mom earlier today went something like, “What if what you’re calling “evil” isn’t out there trying to get you, but coming from us in the ways we have acted from insecurity? What if what we all know and love to call EVIL is our simply our harvest of the natural outgrowth of unmet needs on every level, internal and inter-personal to global?” She is a generous listener who is accustomed to my wise and goofy musings as a defrag tool. For anyone who find audio processing helfpul, you understand. I could totally talk to a recorder or myself or an imaginary friend, of course…but usually I don’t?

    We’ve already agreed that our basic requirements are: generic, universal, and easily met in our human setup. (And yep-some setups are sweeter than others.) We know that inspired action ripples out indefinitely. We know that starting small is the somewhere in “You gotta start somewhere.”

    Another way to tell the story is that humans have been learning, exploring, and practicing life on Earth for a while now. In the most recent 2,135 years or so, we humans have been buffing up our leadership skills – resource management and medicine, astronomy and advanced tool-making. We have spread our lifeways all over the planet and have learned and developed all the while. Vast networks of species interdependence exist now in partnership – trees and mycelium, for example. And humans with plants and animals, co-existing and co-creating new landscapes. Human development isn’t just physical or mental because, as a species, we are evolving and upgrading our whole beings, including the deeper subconscious “hard-wiring” and the cellular composition. Like crucial ios updates. And what ideas we bring forth into use toward our dreams will determine our lives and impact those around us and beyond. So bring forth Peace, Joy, and Restoration.

    Although it might take a while longer than we’d prefer, we can use what we know to affect change that ripples into humanity’s long historical arc, if not its very identity. LOL I have such strong conviction that humans have a unique opportunity right now today, to tend and care for this planet and all her inhabitants in a way that spreads hope and cultivates abundance.

    We begin by using what we already know and what we already have available to transform the despair in all the forms in which we encounter it.
    We start with ourselves, thn to those closest to us, and finally to everyone we encounter along the road.

    How do we do this? Allow yourself to consider the possibility that something OTHER than your past experiences is possible. And as you consider this possibility, notice how you feel. If any ideas come to your mind, take a little action – just a lil baby step. And if no ideas come, just wait and stay open to receive.

    That feels aligned to me. Satisfactory!

    The photo at the top was taken by a guy named who published it in an online article about Oscar Wilde’s beautiful line, “A flower blossoms for its own joy.”
    This line is from a play called The Decay of Lying. It was my favorite image for the post and I was delighted to get a little extra commentary on the quote, one of my favorites right now.

  • I Am The Huntress.

    I Am The Huntress.

    Whether I make it about having Gate 21 lit up in my Human Design chart or about the profound effect of taking my partner’s family name, referring to myself in this way – The Huntress – has helped me to remember who I am and who I yearn to be in this life. We live in a time when our understandings of what it means to be human are changing.

    As the big, so the little. I am changing, too.

    I am called to dance with life, breathing in all the fractals of experience I can, and equally called to distill it into a quintessence for you. One that reminds you of something important.

    That’s all this is – a “portal” into my beingness. It’s also quite experimental! 😜

    Step through the door, into perspective that feels other – and notice how familiar and how strange your world may seem on the other side. And, now, how you can never go back and how you are different from now on.